tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33707707586877326852012-02-16T15:31:57.180-08:00STORIES...MEMORIES...SWEETIES...BITTERNESS...GOSSIPS...MEANINGFUL...LIFE IS JUST THAT BEAUTIFUL, DON'T U SEE IT?Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.comBlogger331100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-45627557508935447912011-07-09T04:31:00.000-07:002011-07-09T04:32:01.817-07:00ONE BERSIH MALAYSIA<br />Few weeks back, I still don’t know what is BERSIH.<br />Few days back, I was busy looking for friends to accompany my husband to the rally. Reason being us, having 2 kids, cannot afford to have both arrested. I have to standby to provide legal aid service for any untowards.<br />Yesterday, I bought few mini buns and still persuading friends to go to keep my husband company.<br />This morning, I put the minibuns, 2 bottles of waters, a yellow shirt wrapped in a paper giftbag, a cap and a small umbrella in a backpack for my husband.<br />I was asked to bring my husband to the nearest KTM station – Subang.<br /><br />We left home at about 10.30am. I drove and of course, my Rui En followed. Due to the road blocks, we were facing terrible jam, I was very upset with the wastage of the resources and taxpayer monies – if I called to say there was a robbery somewhere, do you think I can get any police? I sounded my horn furiously few times on the road to show my unhappiness.<br /><br />Finally, we skipped the road blocks, after few alternative small routes, we managed to reach Subang KTM station at about 12.00pm. After dropping my husband, I thought of driving back home. Rui En was crying badly wanted to follow the father. That delayed me. Suddenly, my crying boy pointed to front and called papa papa. My husband was walking back to us – many Police were there.<br /><br />We dropped the paper giftbag in car. With 2 backpacks (one for my husband and one my Rui En) and ONE BIG umbrella, I parked the car and went down with my husband. I bought a ticket to KL sentral for my husband. With few minutes hesitation, when my husband came out from the toilet, I bought another one ticket for myself to KL sentral.<br /><br />There we go. We reached KL sentral. After feeding my Rui En and bought some more breads to stand by, we were misdirected by the stall owner to go upstairs to buy LRT ticket. Many police cars and police were there. I saw the police trying to arrest a young malay guy and a lady was begging them not to. While this malay guy was struggling, I saw somebody throwing a water bottle which fell onto the crowds of police. That’s where I could not hide my anger anymore. I shouted, I begged you I have a loud voice.<br /><br />“Apa jadi? Orang Muda saja. Lepaskan dia, stop it!”<br />There was this young policeman came to me, saying “No worries, the police is only doing their duty, unlawful assembly!”<br /><br />I shouted back, “We are worried, we are scared! You all made us worried, and you all are scaring us now!!!”<br /><br />Not to forget, a malay passed by me and said to me, “police state”.<br /><br />With the anger, I asked the counter where to buy LRT ticket and we were told to go downstairs. We went downstairs. I told I wanted to go to Star LRT station Plaza Rakyat. The Counter told me to go Masjid Jamek the nearest station.<br /><br />In the LRT. We met people like us. The LRT did not stop at Masjid Jamek. We stopped at Dang Wangi and we walked from there towards the rally.<br />On our way, we met many people like us. We were near to Masjid Jamek station. At about 1.30pm, many police cars (giant size) dashed to our direction and many police were coming. Yes, tear gas was the immediate thing we can think of. I ran to a corner with my Rui En while my husband trying to go as front as he could. My Rui En was excited, he saw helicopter, police car and “fire engine” (I kept on telling him that was the police car but he could not differentiate cos of the big red size of the truck).<br /><br />We could not move further. Tear gas was at Menara Maybank there. All the routes towards Merdeka Stadium were blocked. We stayed to observe and go as near as we could.<br /><br />It started to rain. Mcdonalds was closed. We went 7-11 to buy some drink – I have not even taken my breakfast by then. We bought a raincoat (coincidentally it was yellow colour) for my Rui En, hoping that he would not be wet under the rain. We still attempted to move further until I met few lawyers who was at the legal aid centre standby to provide legal aid service to those in need.<br /><br />We went to the legal aid centre. I wanted to volunteer my service but was refused – because, I supposed I was near to rally and could not be a neutral or independent person anymore.<br /><br />Then, I decided to go back until we watched a crowd of people matching towards our direction. Strange to us, the police actually let them go. We were wondering whether these people were supporters of BERSIH and then somebody told that it was the UMNO youth group. My anger hiked up where I was screaming under the rain.<br />“ASHAME, MALU, DOUBLE STANDARD!” Polices were looking at me but dare not even come near. I think my Rui En is my weapon.<br /><br />On our walking to Dang Wangi station, we met an even larger crowd marching towards us. When they came near, they confirmed they were BERSIH supporters, so we followed… again until near Menara Merdeka where I could see the tear gas, I ran with my Rui En. <br /><br />I know, if without Rui En, I will move even further!<br /><br />It’s alright, we have done our very best! We were very brave to move so far already.<br /><br />At Dang Wangi station, we were told that KL sentral station was closed. My husband called her sister to wait for us at Kelana Jaya station to fetch us to Subang KTM. In the LRT, we witnessed the large crowds on the road and all of us in the LRT shouted so loudly and so proudly!!!! <br /><br />On our way back home, still road block was not over, it took us long to cross the road block towards USJ summit….<br /> <br />At about 5pm, I reached home, safely with my husband and my Rui En.<br /><br />Thanks to everyone who was so supportive, whether you were in the rally or not, the attempts we made to go near there already proven something. The number in Merdeka Stadium does not matter, what matters is the number scattered all over the place or even countries. And, to those closely watching Malaysia KINI at home, following the news on BERSIH, you all have also done a good job by giving your best moral support!<br /><br />Let us keep up the spirit till the forthcoming General Election! WELL DONE ALL!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-4562755750893544791?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-35080419552032383612010-09-16T12:25:00.000-07:002010-09-16T13:05:35.703-07:00他说：<br />It must be very frustrating to have tried so hard and still come up with nothing.But perhaps it is now time to look at the facts and take a break to ease some of your anxiety.<br />Do not just sit back and feel very, very disappointed. Your future is at stake here and you surely don't want to leave this unresolved, with further complications to add to your present misery.<br /><br />我说:<br />不想放弃，因为放弃比继续努力更需要付出代价。<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br /><br />他说：<br />The mask is the trick that allows you to be more than you are.<br /><br />我说：<br />所以喜欢戏剧。<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br /><br />他说：<br />A decision made by youself is better than one which is made for you. Because then, you would have no one but yourself to blame if anything goes wrong. Nor would you have any excuses not to do well, either.<br /><br />我说：<br />我是一个敢作敢为的人，不是不知道后果，而是愿意承担一切的错。<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br /><br />他说：<br />Sometimes we have something...<br />without truly knowing what we have<br />Sometimes we hold something...<br />without knowing completely what we hold<br />Sometimes we are given something...<br />without fully appreciating what we are given<br />But, that knowledge usually comes<br />when we realise what we have lost.<br /><br />我说：<br />往往，懂得要珍惜的时候，人生也已走到剩下一半了。。。<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br /><br />他说：<br />Life is short, live it up!<br /><br />我说：<br />人生是短暂的，是的，live it up! Hurry up!<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br /><br />他说：<br />As long as I live, there will always be tomorrow. When one door closes, another will open.<br /><br />我说：<br />当门关上了以后，朋友，是该换个方向了。<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br /><br />他说：<br />But if you question it, if you sit and ponder what to make of it ... Poof! Life will be behind you like a faded rose or a distant memory. So enjoy; not later, now.<br /><br />我说：<br />人生是什么？与其去解释，不如去实行，去体会。<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br /><br />他说：<br />Do the things you have to do today so that you'll have more time to have fun tomorrow<br /><br />我说：<br />Only if you have tomorrow! No, have fun now!!!<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br /><br />他说：<br />I complained I had no shoes until I met a man who had no feet<br /><br />我说：<br />当你埋怨没鞋可穿时，该想想那些没脚可穿鞋的人。<br /><strong>更何况我们还是有好多漂亮的鞋可自由选择穿的人！</strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-3508041955203238361?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-83509443900337432792010-09-14T08:53:00.000-07:002010-09-14T09:54:20.180-07:00依然坚持相信一分耕耘，一分收获<br />因为每一次你在耕耘，你也就是在收获<br /><br />。。。<br /><br />依然坚持相信有些遗憾是无需重来的<br />因为，即使再给我们机会重新选择一次，<br />我们还是会有很多遗憾，<br />且还可能因为太过小心翼翼，太过刻意去经营，<br />而留下更多的缺憾！<br /><br />。。。<br /><br />依然坚持相信真正的女人味不是从衣着装扮中制造出来的<br />而是发自于内心的转变，成熟<br /><br />。。。<br /><br />依然坚持相信人无论在什么情况下都必须拥有一个完全属于自己的空间<br />可以尽情哭泣，呐喊，狂笑，发泄。。。<br />不必理会别人的目光，无须在意你那完美的形象<br />谢绝一切好意或恶意的安慰<br />我只想安静地让自己沉淀。<br /><br />。。。<br /><br />依然坚持相信那个强烈属于自己的自我性格是永远不会消失的<br />最多，只是换个方式重新开始<br />在为大爱牺牲的前提下<br />然而，委屈，我是从不愿让它出现在我的人生字典里的<br /><br />。。。<br /><br />依然坚持相信长痛不如短痛这个古今不变的道理<br />如果是出尽了所有的法宝，仍无法恢复从前的真心与快乐<br />我会主动结束一切不愉快。是自私，是狠心，是不负责任也好<br />对不起，我也只想趁早把那份还美好着的回忆好好留住<br /><br />。。。<br /><br />依然坚持相信没有一个人可以完全了解一个人<br />所以你没权利要求别人用一百分来爱你，更没资格要求别人为你做决定<br />只有你自己，过着你的现在，可以掌握你要的未来<br /><br />。。。<br /><br />依然坚持相信人必须要有自己人生中可以坚持相信的原则<br />不管是对还是错<br />只管后悔不后悔<br />唯一条件是这原则不可以以伤人为本<br /><br /><br />。。。<br /><br />于是依然坚持，坚持相信我所相信的<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-8350944390033743279?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-24500738485447289212010-09-13T15:40:00.000-07:002010-09-13T15:54:32.558-07:00每一件事都想亲力亲为<br />每一个人都想认真对待<br />每一个日子都想过得精彩<br />然而<br />手越捉得紧<br />心越放不开<br /><br />每一次下雨 我为自己撑伞<br />每一次跌倒 我扶自己起来<br />每一次心冷 我让自己阳光<br />然而<br />我越勇敢坚强<br />人越变得倔强<br /><br />于是<br />我不想每一件事都亲力亲为<br />我不想每一个人都认真对待<br />我不想每一个日子都过得精彩<br />因为要求完美<br />已让我精疲力尽<br /><br />于是<br />每一次下雨 我让自己哭泣<br />每一次跌倒 我不立刻爬起<br />每一次心冷 我放任着情绪<br />因为不想坚强<br />变成了我一生的负累<br /><br />去吧！让自己不快乐的完美主义<br />也许不完美的自己<br />往后会有更多人的疼惜<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-2450073848544728921?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-73663399361886471812010-09-05T00:15:00.000-07:002010-09-05T00:32:37.433-07:00去年，告诉自己若我可以把爸您逝世的整个过程从记忆里化成文字记录，那么，我就可以放下了。<br /><br />今年，告诉自己若我可以教会睿恩念公公的名字，然后可以一一回答他“公公是谁，公公在哪里，公公做什么”等等的问题时，那么，我就可以放下了。<br /><br />如今，启恩也出世了，以上所说的没一样做到。。。<br /><br />不再告诉自己要什么什么了，该做到和能做到的时候，就会做到的了。<br /><br />x x x<br /><br />在ikea看中了一只老鼠，每一次都没去买下来，虽然那一点都不贵。<br /><br />某天，逛了一圈的我竟不知怎么，心血来潮回头拿了那只老鼠，付了钱，买了回家。<br /><br />不久后，我发现了自己怀了属鼠的睿恩。<br /><br /><br />睿恩喜欢米奇老鼠，狗狗和熊熊。那天在toy'r'us，他却选了一只老虎用手推车推着推着，连爸爸来接了，都不肯走，还想把它给推回家。当时我还开玩笑问他，是不是想要个虎弟弟或虎妹妹？他还似懂非懂地点了点头。<br /><br />不久，我发现了自己怀了属虎的启恩。<br /><br /><br />世上的事要说巧合，有时也挺巧合的！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-7366339936188647181?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-15631849541731368802010-09-03T23:03:00.000-07:002010-09-21T10:54:05.826-07:00启恩，<br /><br />你的降临和你哥一样，都不是在妈妈的预算内。然而，这场上天意外的安排，令妈妈有了一个提早退休的计划。<br />妈妈一直幽自己一默，至少这一次妈妈并不会措手不及，也不会难堪或愧疚什么，因为这一次，妈妈并不需要为了你忙着结婚，哈！<br /><br />妈妈一直觉得你是上天对妈妈的眷顾。<br />第一个怀孕的阶段，你并没有给妈妈问题，孕吐也不超过五个手指头。虽然妈妈的背部会隐隐作痛，那是因为在做你哥的月子时摔了一跤所致，与你无关。<br />接着，妈妈并没有太多的身体上的变化和痛苦，抽筋不多次，也不太难受，连水肿都没有。除了照顾你哥的疲累以外，妈妈很庆幸你一点麻烦都没给妈妈。<br /><br />直到过了你哥两岁的生日以后，也是过了妈妈的生日以后，那时你已八个月大。<br />你爷爷必须进行一个大手术，所以奶奶必须回去家乡照顾爷爷。而婆婆因为要照顾公公的生意没法子长期在这儿帮妈妈看你哥。妈妈去年因为公公与外太婆的过世已用尽了累积几年的假期，今年开始累积的假期又在这段时期给用了一半。<br />然而最让妈妈心疼的是，<br />在6月20日那天，你哥跌破了头皮，缝了三支针。看着你哥承受着那痛楚和惊吓，妈妈的心疼了好久好久，却一点也分担不到什么。<br />你哥真的很勇敢，他还是过了这一关。虽然额头上的疤痕还在，但妈妈一定会让它消失的。相信妈妈，你们都是妈妈最心疼的宝贝。<br /><br />断断续续地熬到了7月中，爷爷下来与我们同住，总算日子可以暂时安定下来，虽然中间还是有些琐事，必须做临时的调整。<br />了解妈妈一向未雨绸缪的性格，妈妈已尽力在8月来临前准备好一切你用的和妈妈用的，以及安排好家里的一切，准备更顺利地迎接你的到来。因为妈妈知道8月会是妈妈最忙的一个月份，必须完成很多重要的案件，以及做好产假的交代。<br />妈妈的医生早在8月的第一个星期吩咐妈妈做好迎接你的准备。<br /><br />就在妈妈不停忙着打战时，妈妈一早预定的陪月来电告诉妈妈她有关节炎，没办法帮你妈妈做月子，妈妈在打战的同时，花了一个星期，打了30几通电话，才找到了一个陪月来替代。<br />所幸，这并没影响到妈妈的战绩，还是保持在场场胜利的纪录，除了一场一早已预了输却必须硬着头皮打和一场赢得不太漂亮以外。<br />妈妈以为在8月19日打完了最后一场战以后，可以终于停下脚步交代工作上的一切时，妈妈却病倒了。不，是病了，但没有倒。<br />大概是你哥传染给妈妈的吧！他在妈妈打着战时病了，好在妈妈在忙碌中仍维持得住那敏感度，提早发现你哥的不妥，所以只是小发烧，吃了三天药就好了，不然要妈妈每晚不眠地看顾着你哥，妈妈恐怕也熬不住。<br /><br />在离预产期不到两个星期的时候病倒，是妈妈对你不住，因为妈妈一直告诉你要忍耐到妈妈打完最后一场战，虽然妈妈也很想和快与你见面。<br />很担心没办法在最佳状态下产你，但，妈妈还是坚持不吃药，怕会对你留下后遗症。<br /><br />就在8月24日，妈妈接到消息，那位妈妈帮你找到的保姆告诉妈妈她没办法照顾你了，因为一些沟通上的误会。这个晚上，妈妈工作到8点以后，急忙回家附近打听保姆的联络号码。当晚，妈妈就碰到了一位保姆，与她倾谈甚久，却心里不是滋味，那不是妈妈要的。<br />启恩，你是上天派来让妈妈变更坚强的吗？妈妈已为公公去世已让妈妈勇敢起来了，但这接二连三的使命，妈妈还是得去过关斩将的，带着10个月的身孕，妈妈还是得咬紧牙根，勇往直前！<br /><br />8月25日，妈妈请了半天假去产检，在等医生的时候，妈妈打了好几通电话为你找保姆，就在保姆和保姆的介绍之下，妈妈约了一位声音听起来像是妈妈想要的在第二天晚上见面，因为你爸爸还在外玻工作。<br /><br />8月26日凌晨5点，妈妈感觉腹部疼痛，赶紧问你，是不是要出来了？妈妈还问你，难道你不想等爸爸回来，难道你不想等妈妈确定了保姆人选吗？<br />5点多，你哥醒了一下，在疼痛中安抚你哥睡着后，妈妈赶紧去叫醒你奶奶，然后拦住你舅舅，叫他去上班前先放妈妈在医院，妈妈感觉是时候了。因为疼痛越来越强烈。<br />到了医院，已是7点。在护士确定以后，妈妈打电话通知你爸爸，但要你爸爸别赶回来，深怕路上会有什么意外。然后通知你奶奶说妈妈已在医院等着你的出世，报个平安。妈妈还记得当妈妈在子宫开了5cm时打电话给stemcell的工作人员，她还叫妈妈子宫开了9cm才再致电给她，妈妈还笑说到那时，妈妈应该已痛得没办法说话了。<br />妈妈记得8点开始，那疼痛已让妈妈承受不住。妈妈在上厕所时，已快痛得站不起来了。你记得妈妈当时对你说了什么吗？妈妈说，弟弟，妈妈已经很痛了，我们一起出来吧，不要等爸爸了，好吗？<br />你果然很听话，没让妈妈疼太久，就在两次撕裂似地用力推以后，你就出来了。9.05am 是你的出生时辰。<br /><br />虽然在你未出世前，发生了好多事，但妈妈希望你不会感受到压力，要和妈妈一样带着一颗感恩的心，就如爸爸为你和你哥取的名字一样，陪着妈妈去面对吧！<br />妈妈永远相信明天会更好，到你长大以后，妈妈要一一跟你诉说这一切一切，造就了妈妈和你的默契和回忆，妈妈相信你一定比妈妈更勇敢更坚强！<br /><br />如今，看着你那爱微笑的小脸孔，真是上天给爸爸妈妈的恩赐。妈妈没什么奢求，只愿你与你哥可以健康，平安，相亲相爱地快乐成长！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-1563184954173136880?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-32961938686921234472010-04-02T06:51:00.000-07:002010-04-02T06:52:03.567-07:00何时没有在日记里给你写信<br />何时想要写信却懒于动笔<br />何时提笔后才发现没有话题<br />何时我已不再那么想你<br /><br />你说会在远方陪我看星<br />而我许诺会在这里等你<br />我们一直天真地相信爱情<br />忘了距离可以改变两颗心<br /><br />原来我们的爱情这样不堪一击<br />以为快乐的回忆足够面对孤寂<br />却不知你我之间的距离<br />可以让你害怕空虚<br />可以使我寻找代替<br />在我们都无法坚强的孤单里<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-3296193868692123447?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-59012261893997409942010-04-02T06:49:00.000-07:002010-04-02T06:50:24.679-07:00又是一夜的徘徊<br />有些事情还是无法释怀<br />往日种种浮现脑海<br />我已不再是当年的小孩<br /><br />又是一天的醒来<br />眼角残留着昨夜的悲哀<br />好好将心情梳洗一番<br />每天都是全新的出发<br /><br />没有什么悲伤可以悲伤很久<br />多大的暴风雨仍可再见彩虹<br /><br />让自己快乐起来<br />何必让日子过得如此无奈 <br />只要把心扉打开<br />阳光就会很快渗进来<br /><br />让自己快乐起来<br />没有什么结是永远解不开<br />只要把心扉打开<br />幸福就会一步一步走过来<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-5901226189399740994?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-4301796356722345872010-04-02T06:43:00.001-07:002010-04-02T06:47:12.196-07:00约好三五知己去打bowling<br />我们始终未能习惯<br />只有我们两人的世界里<br /><br />每一次你总是遥遥领先<br />爱情里的脚步<br />我总是赶不上你<br /><br />徘徊于爱情与尊严之间<br />我总是找不着中心点<br />不是迷失在爱里面<br />就是太执着于自己的理念<br />越挣扎 我越钻牛角尖<br /><br />停留在喜欢与爱的迷惘<br />让我渐渐理出一个方向<br />偶尔胜利使我勇敢<br />击不中还有第二线希望<br />即使输也要输得漂亮<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-430179635672234587?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-75212501811038369492010-04-02T06:42:00.000-07:002010-04-02T06:43:41.796-07:00你笑了<br />嘴角露出甜蜜的笑容<br />稚气的脸不懂掩护<br />原来早已有人给你幸福<br /><br />你哭了<br />眼角泛着闪闪的泪光<br />握着他写来的情书<br />从此你让他牵了你的手<br /><br />我迟到了<br />写好的信已寄不出去<br />让它静静搁在一旁<br />随着记忆变黄变旧<br /><br />我迟到了<br />想说的话往肚里吞<br />把它埋藏在心深处<br />再痛也不去碰触<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-7521250181103836949?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-76720295967312956142010-04-02T06:40:00.000-07:002010-04-02T06:42:40.613-07:00午夜惊醒 无故哭泣<br />想要放弃 说服不了自己<br />起伏的心情无法安定<br />忘了忘了 泪水不属于年轻<br /><br />突然心中 充满喜悦<br />想要珍惜 多梦的季节<br />全新感受一切爱恨喜悲<br />原来原来 年轻就是一种美<br /><br />想哭就哭 不必虚伪<br />想笑就笑 没有累赘<br /><br />年轻就是 跌倒再爬起 爬起再跌倒 永不会累<br />年轻就是 哭后再笑笑后再哭 永不言悔<br /><br />（写于1998年的我）<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-7672029596731295614?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-39546742343673848152010-04-02T06:39:00.000-07:002010-04-02T06:40:19.780-07:00是否试过<br />一个人在冷清的街道上<br />任由雨点狠狠打在身上<br />让泪水夹着所有的不满<br />落在地上不再去想<br /><br />是否试过<br />一个人在繁忙的人来人往<br />所有人都与你擦身而过<br />让烦恼背着忙碌的理由<br />搁在一旁不要去想<br /><br />不要去想<br />那填不满的缺憾<br /> 甩不开的伤感<br />挫败的滋味虽不好玩<br />却也是人生的一种成长 <br /><br />不要去想<br />那挽不回的过往<br /> 抚不平的心伤<br />一个人上路虽然孤单<br />却换来一身的坦然<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-3954674234367384815?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-882916054303199702010-04-02T06:37:00.000-07:002010-04-02T06:38:37.409-07:00离别前告诉自己不再哭泣<br />天下没有不散的筵席<br />珍惜可以拥有的相聚<br />缘分会让我再找到你<br /><br />离别时告诉自己不再哭泣<br />默默把感动深藏心里<br />熟悉的旋律在耳边响起<br />提醒我曾和你分享的过去<br /><br />离别后告诉自己不再哭泣<br />要在孤单里学习爱自己<br />那段属于你我的曾经<br />将永远永远伴我远行<br /><br />把心交了出来给了你<br />再没什么让我们分离<br />彼此的心早已紧紧相系<br />谢谢你我都如此珍惜<br /><br />这一次不再告诉自己不再哭泣<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-88291605430319970?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-24094998229340501812010-03-28T01:05:00.000-07:002010-03-28T01:10:16.907-07:00你写信来告诉我你从家乡外公的丧礼赶回来的时候， 收到了一封被雨淋湿了的信。他终于还是作了决定，回到她的身边。你说，同时失去两个至爱的人，那打击沉重得让你无法承担。<br /><br />一项重大考试的前几天，我们分手了。如果我们还真有恋爱过的话。我告诉自己无论如何一定要把这考试给考好，没有爱情，总也不能自毁前程吧？<br /><br /><br />你说你无法忘记曾经与他坐在码头吹吹海风，听听海，谈谈人生，理想，未来。然而他根本没想过要有你的未来，但他为什么牽你的手？为什么又与你拥抱？你却从来不问为什么。你说，你害怕答案。<br /><br />他说做回朋友，我就做回朋友；他情不自禁，我也陪他陷入爱里。他说，我达不到他的要求，我在爱情与尊严的挣扎中失去了自己。而他却没有看见我的努力。我们没牽过手，连搭肩膀都不曾有过，我的回忆里完全没有这些片段，所以不需要想办法忘记。<br /><br /><br />谈分手的那一天，他说，我只是他心中比较肯定的候补。这句话让我心好冷，冷得把所有压抑在心中已久终于决定说出的话全都给倒流到心底的最深处，一一埋葬。我，有了受骗的感觉。<br /><br />你说，你原来只是他寂寞空虚时才会想到的人。只有你一厢情愿地以为他会留在你的身边。你在他心目中，原来是没有位子的。你有种被利用的感觉。<br /><br /><br />你开始恨他。而我，连恨都懒得，不想对他再存有任何的感觉。<br />你说他很自私。我套了这么多的话语，绕了一大圈，为了就是不想用这字眼去形容他。<br /><br /><br />从此，我们一个人上路。没有了他们，我们自己生活，生活得很精彩。我们终于摆脱了多年纠缠不清的关系。没有了爱情，人反而更会为自己活！<br /><br />。。。。<br /><br />若干时日后，你收到了他迟来的生日祝福，整个人又陷入了那一段回忆里。。。<br /><br />朋友，其实我们真正放不下的不是他们，而是那一段回忆。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-2409499822934050181?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-40921139451922123972010-03-28T00:58:00.000-07:002010-03-28T01:01:19.440-07:00当我终于学会了勇敢<br />把矜持给放在一旁<br />开始憧憬爱情的发展<br />放弃却是你给我的答案<br /><br />当我终于学会了隐藏<br />回到没有爱情的孤单<br />生活点滴没人分享<br />喜怒哀乐自己承担<br /><br />爱情的过去 说忘难忘<br />爱情的现在 只留下感伤<br />爱情的未来 没有了期盼<br />拥有与失去原来只是游戏一场<br /><br />当我终于学会了坚强<br />你却说对我们的过往<br />仍念念不忘<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-4092113945192212397?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-4551443180617177402009-12-18T07:02:00.000-08:002009-12-18T07:10:54.598-08:00如果悲伤只是一片乌云<br />我可不可以让它随风而去<br />如果快乐只是一场梦境<br />我可不可以不要这么快醒<br /><br />如果离别是为了再相聚<br />我应不应该潇洒地离去<br />如果不舍只因为太在意<br />我应不应该慢慢学习放弃<br /><br />如果人生只是一出戏剧<br />我是不是可以不演自己<br />如果生活难免会不如意<br />我是不是应该勇敢走下去<br /><br />如果分手是情人的结局<br />我可不可以只做你的知己<br />如果爱情只是一场游戏<br />你可不可以陪我一直玩下去<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-455144318061717740?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-16078400172467006462009-12-18T06:42:00.000-08:002009-12-18T06:48:06.175-08:00我是那么地用心<br />信中的每一段嘘寒问暖<br />哪怕只是只字片语<br />我是那么地用心<br />深怕伤了你的心<br /><br />我是那么地用心<br />约会前每一句说话表情<br />都在镜中反复练习<br />我是那么地用心<br />用心地去爱着你<br /><br /><br />也许爱不可以太用心<br />小心翼翼反而感觉压力<br />也许爱不可以太用心<br />太去在意反而容易失去<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-1607840017246700646?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-70045927997524069922009-11-27T07:10:00.000-08:002009-11-27T07:11:05.418-08:00我看见你眼中的问号<br />我忽冷忽热的心让你捉摸不着<br />你的心中有很多省略号<br />感情的点滴怎么抹也抹不掉<br />你说你不再期盼惊叹号<br />暧昧的关系早已让你感觉倦了<br /><br />没有答案的问号堆积着一天一天<br />没完没了的省略号拖着一点一点<br />再多的爱没能让你安然入眠<br />再多的情也成了过往云烟<br />爱情里有太多的标点符号<br />却总是画不出一个等号<br /><br />当我们的感情被画上逗点<br />我知道句点将不再遥远<br />不再遥远<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-7004592799752406992?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-79827423429513073912009-11-27T07:09:00.000-08:002009-11-27T07:10:15.202-08:00我心里住着一个小孩<br />从过去跳跃到未来<br />总不会安分地守着现在<br /><br />我心里住着一个小孩<br />放不开对家的依赖<br />却又常常找机会溜出外<br /><br />快不快乐 他从不计较<br />只知道不哭的时候就会笑<br />爱或不爱 他从不烦恼<br />只要伸出手就会有人抱抱<br />只是只是<br />当现实不饶人 岁月催人老<br />那个住在心里的小孩<br />一天一点被吓跑<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-7982742342951307391?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-82411121174125884122009-11-27T07:07:00.000-08:002009-11-27T07:09:12.944-08:00一天又一天 一年又到此<br />一个完全属于我的日子<br />将思绪好好收拾<br />看看生活还剩下多少坚持<br /><br />朋友捎来久违的消息<br />说 ：“朋友我还没忘记你，<br />希望你也没忘记自己”<br />唤醒了遥远但熟悉的曾经<br /><br />我想许愿是奢侈的期许<br />对于一切我只懂珍惜<br />快不快乐 我都可以<br />只要心中有个叫回忆的东西<br /><br />如果许愿是生日额外的祝礼<br />请给我对未来的信心<br />让梦想不再遥不可及<br /><br />朋友后来寄了张小卡<br />说：“迟来的祝福不要紧，<br />重要是你没误了自己”<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-8241112117412588412?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-55319879091169789852009-10-26T06:06:00.000-07:002009-10-26T06:07:28.924-07:00明福之验尸案拖拖拉拉有三个月了，反反复复的供证，从浩浩荡荡开幕到零零散散的花絮报导到现代宋慈出现后真相呼之欲出的如今。。。会是柳暗花明吗？<br />还是又像总稽查司的例行报告一样，让人哗然以后就急急散场，不了了之到明年今天再来见证一场更荒唐的数目字？ <br />也或许可能，会像占据各大华文报章新闻头条连环直击报导的马华党争一样，闹得死去活来打生打死到窝里反后又四两拨千斤地离奇回到原点？<br /><br />我想，其实我们都已习惯了这样的形式好多年了，只是当事情演变得一年比一年精彩，一次比一次要嚣张时候，我可没这样的宽宏大量了。<br />当你忍无可忍时，就无需再忍了！！<br />308的政治海啸显然没有起到太大的化学作用，心中的那把火是该把它烧得更凶更大的了！<br />那些还固执的死忠，请你稍微用你还可运用的细胞活动一下，你就会知道只要旧的不去，报告只会越写越夸张，你我的生活越水深火热，与我无痛无痒的他人的豪宅就越建越豪！<br />新的未必好，但至少，那是唯一还可以托付希望的！<br />难道你还想等，等到再一个明福出现？如是，那让你我祈祷那将不会是你和我。<br />那些还置身事外的凡人，以为出淤泥不染，殊不知人已身在江湖，在家在外都与政治息息相关，而如今实情已迫在眉梢，你想逃已逃不及了，却还以为自己是一股清流，不受大气候影响！<br />请撇开你的莲花论，面对现实吧！<br />那些还想逃之夭夭的俗子，我只有一句忠告，逃得出家门，逃不出问题！你的自私只是让你在他国过着人家的生活，丧失根本，如同蒲公英只能漂流人间，没实质意义。<br />留下吧，留下来凝聚多一份力量，我们才是真正的主人！<br /><br />我不认识明福，也没亲眼看见那血淋淋的照片，但我的心却在淌血。。。勒颈，拖曳，殴腿，插肛门。。。原来在这一组人把他带走时，已下定决心要他的命了，什么背后力量可以促使这样一个一级谋杀的使命，我越想，心也就越不寒而栗，那样的无法无天让我心惊胆颤地过着日子，眼看着已发生的悲剧一宗又一宗地浮上来，却无能为力，更叫人心寒的是，这样的悲剧会再发生，或还在不为人知地发生着！！！<br /><br />我不是什么伟人，不想成大事立大业，<br />作为一个还有心跳和感受的人，我只想请求你们，将心比心，用你手中掌握的一票，还给你我一个健康的体制！<br />求求你们帮帮忙吧！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-5531987909116978985?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-6737039600840628582009-09-26T08:12:00.001-07:002009-09-26T08:16:51.954-07:00梦见已逝的父亲，梦醒时若有所失地泪如雨下。<br /><br />却在这一刻，我15个月大的儿子也醒了，向我点了几下头，那是他要喝奶的表示。<br />于是起身给他泡奶。<br /><br />儿子喝着奶的时候，我的情绪还是调不过来。<br /><br />他喝完了奶，看见我不停掉落的泪水，递给我他的抱枕，又递给我他的枕头。<br />我接着抱枕和枕头，眼泪还是没法停止。。。<br /><br />结果，我那可爱的小宝贝竟把他含着的奶嘴取出来，递给了我。<br /><br />我哭笑不得地抱着我的小宝贝，告诉他，“谢谢你，宝贝，妈妈没事，妈妈只是想起了公公而已。”<br /><br /><br /><br />我记得那是我先生生日的早上。<br /><br /><br />觉得有必要把这份窝心给记下来，永远地留住这份感动。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-673703960084062858?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-63450848525160933472009-09-26T05:10:00.000-07:002009-09-26T05:13:19.196-07:00有一个被俘虏的军人巧遇幸存的伙伴，他问：“你已宽恕那些囚禁你的人吗？”<br />这位幸存的伙伴说：“不可能。”<br />军人再问：“那你仍然在他们的监禁下？” <br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br />YANG BULAT TIDAK AKAN DATANG MENGOLEK；<br />YANG LEPER TIDAK AKAN DATANG MELAYANG。<br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br />MAY THERE BE ENOUGH CLOUDS IN YOUR LIFE TO MAKE A BEAUTIFUL SUNSET！<br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br />生命只不过是一出我们不得不演出的戏<br />在我们不愿揭幕时开演<br />又在我们不愿落幕时结束<br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br /><br />星星是漂亮的<br />因为一朵看不见的花<br />使沙漠漂亮的<br />是它在某一个地方藏了一口井<br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br />请不要仅仅喜欢画里的一抹风采<br />却讨厌一整幅画<br />脱离了其他成就其生命的笔意<br />一抹风采也只不过是平淡的一抹颜色<br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br />其实任何故事都是一样的<br />合在书里时平平静静<br />一掀开又是一番悲欢离合<br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br />我享受孤独，但其实从来未曾渴望孤单<br />如果真有温热的关怀使在寒冬赤足走过冰雪的旅人得到温暖，我要。<br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br />最困苦的时候，没有时间去流泪<br />最危急的时候，没有时间去迟疑<br /><br />。。。。。。<br /><br />我们站着，只为告诉别人自己还没有倒下。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-6345084852516093347?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-75976004497735861332009-09-26T02:12:00.000-07:002009-09-26T02:14:08.095-07:00当你发觉<br />你越来越懂得用笑容来面对忧伤<br />你身边的亲朋越少却都是真心和交心的<br />你所要的理想越少因为好多都已实现了<br />而对你的离别已可以用开怀的心去对待<br />对感慨和遗憾都能用珍惜现在去弥补<br />而你也开始不会只求天天如意事事顺心<br />但求有颗天天感恩事事知足的心<br />你就知道你不但已成长，而且还永远保存了一颗年轻的心！<br /><br />写于25.7.2000 的我<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-7597600449773586133?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-39355640513582816752009-09-21T09:11:00.000-07:002009-09-26T00:21:54.942-07:00我从来是这样认为的,当你认真去对待生活时，生活是不会亏待你的。<br />时时刻刻提醒自己，懂得欣赏身边小小的美就是一种大大的幸福。 可我很久以前却听过这样的话，当你需要提醒自己的时候，你其实已经是陷下去了。<br /><br />但我坚持相信，只要心态上准备好了，一切就易办得多了！<br /><br /><br />所幸，工作和生活已占据了我大部分的时间，精神，和情绪。于是，我以为忙碌是真的可以让人忘却烦恼的，不是逃避，不是麻醉，而是转移，分散注意力。一旦忙碌使心中产生一种充实及满足感，不开心的事好像也变的没那么伤了。<br />只是，忙碌了以后呢？<br />还有，在忙碌和忙碌之间的空档呢？<br /><br />忙碌会再来，忙碌和忙碌之间的空档也不会太久，熬得住的，我想。<br /><br /><br /><br />一直都觉得自己是属于坚强的，虽然我爱哭。然而不久前我才发现，我有必要比我自以为是的坚强要坚强上千万倍，才可以面对生命中掌握不住的变数。<br /><br />当永远失去一个人的时候，才知道什么是真正的思念。<br /><br /><br /><br />不想勉强自己，也不想设下期限，真真切切地放纵自己去体会那其中的心情转折，可以有多心折，多疼，多痛，多磨人。。。完完整整地体验自己每个心情阶段的变化。<br /><br />我坚信我最终所抵达的，会是最平静，最辽阔，且最踏实的心理状态，只有思念，没有难过，只有回忆，没有眼泪。<br /><br /><br />在那个时候，没有什么可以再带走什么，因为他，已经住在我的心里了。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-3935564051358281675?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-48850773695294092302009-08-21T23:14:00.000-07:002009-09-22T00:53:16.242-07:00隔天，警察去找了Vada的父亲。Vada的父亲支支吾吾地婉转地把事实告诉她:"Thomas 是对任何东西都敏感的，包括蜜蜂的叮，Thomas死了。”Vada伤心透了，关在房里不吃不喝不睡也不出房门。然而，Vada的父亲却在这时忙着处理Thomas的丧礼，而没去理会她的女儿。于是，Shelly对他说：“你不可以只是顾着那些死人，人生不是只有死亡才值得关心，活着的人更需要你的关心，尤其是你女儿。”其实，这些“死人”除了那些“顾客”以外，还包括他已逝的妻子，Vada的亲生母亲。<br /><br />这时，Vada冲了进来，看见躺在棺木上的Thomas，问道：“你起来跟我一起爬树好吗？你说过要做体育家的，你的眼镜呢？他的眼镜在哪里？他没有眼镜是看不见的。。。”Vada的父亲和Shelly尝试阻拦她，可她却似箭地冲了出去找她暗恋的老师。一个她曾经为了去上他的写作成人班而偷了Shelly的钱的老师。她抱着老师说：“老师，你不是说过要把心中的话表达出来吗？老师，我爱你！”老师尝试向她解释的同时，他的未婚妻走了出来。原来老师下个月就要结婚。<br /><br />Vada难过地跑到那熟悉的河边，爬上那棵大树，站在树干上摇摇欲坠地。<br /><br />回到家里，看见如热锅上蚂蚁的Shelly,Vada感受到从所未有的母爱，对Shelly的恨消失了。父亲看见平安回来对Vada说：“我以为我可以隐藏，但我失败了，我每当看到她喜欢的东西，我就会想起她。”“就如我看见一棵树，我会想起Thomas一样。”Vada接着说。<br /><br />“是的，回忆是好的。”Vada的父亲说。<br /><br />望着父亲离去的背影，Vada第一次对自己说：“其实我的父亲也不是那么坏的。”然后对着Thomas母亲的背影喊着：“请伯母放心，我母亲一定会照顾Thomas的。”<br /><br /><br />几天后，Thomas的母亲来了，递了一枚戒指给她说：“这是Thomas去世时手里紧紧握住的，我想你应该想要拥有它。”Thomas的母亲并不知道其实这枚戒指原本就属于Vada。<br /><br />Vada把戒指戴在无名指上，戒指的颜色变了，是蓝色，深蓝色。是忧郁的蓝色？还是海阔天空的蓝色？<br /><br />Vada再次回到写作成人班时，已是最后一堂课。因为老师即将结婚了。Vada写了一首诗，在诗的结尾时，她是这样念着的：“虽然他们都不在了，但他们却永远在我的心中。”念完诗的Vada早已哭成泪人。<br /><br />在结束前的那一幕，Vada和一位女同学从学校出来，愉快地踏着脚车，奔向光明的未来。<br /><br />而我的眼泪从Thomas丧礼开始就一直没停过。。。<br />这部电影的名字叫“The Girl"，是我在1998年看过的一部电影，却是我在2009年还在找寻的一部电影。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-4885077369529409230?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-46621264175948978642009-08-15T09:46:00.000-07:002009-08-15T10:12:39.838-07:00Early at 7am, woke up, getting ready for the day.<br /><br />Drove my little car and left home for work. Heading to the highway, as usual, the traffic was either slow or non-moving. Long queue at the touch n go lane. I see, our smart tag system was not functioning again. For what the smart tag is there, I don’t know.<br /><br />On the way, stopped at the petrol station to pump petrol. Oh, almost forgotten, the petrol is going to increase again next month. Oh, sorry, it’s an unfair statement. In actual fact, we are given options. It is open for you and me to opt for the cheaper petrol, if we want to, no hard and fast rule that you and me must use the better one, if cost is an issue.<br /><br />Stuck at the exiting toll, hate this. This time, was it lorry or bus broke down, accident or landslide? Oh no, for this day, the radio said there was this construction going on, for what purpose I don’t know, and why it had to be at this congested hours I don’t know, for how long the construction will take I don’t know, and why advance notice was not given I also don’t know.<br /><br />One good hour passed and I finally got out of the toll which I did not know why should I pay after all this jam. What to do except getting mad again when the toll charges increase the next time.<br /><br />Reached the court and saw this big slogan outside the court says “Buat Kerja”. I wonder, prior to this slogan, the people here were not supposed to work.<br /><br />“All cases adjourned as the judge was transferred.” I was given a 3 months' date. Why the judge was transferred within such a short notice I don’t know.<br /><br />Sitting at the cafeteria, taking breakfast n browsing through the newspapers and saw this “Suspected suicide case as no sign of struggling”. Immediately I lost my appetite, wrapped the papers up with nasi lemak, all gone into the dustbin. I must believe that the papers was meant for 3 years old child.<br /><br />Walking out from the court, driving back to office. Being stopped for speeding. IC and driving license given. “U nak Samankah?” Who would want a summons to be issued against him/her, perhaps you could tell me. I was caught driving at 100km/h at a highway with limit of 80km/h, what could I do? I did not have a choice, despite the fact that I have no idea why the limit is fixed at 80km/h for a highway like this? Even my little car could exceed that limit. “Please give me a Summons. I am rushing.” I was asked to go instead. I learned the trick, if you do not want to be summoned, you must ask to be summoned.<br /><br />Reached office. Cleared some work and went out for meeting. Again I had to use the toll. I could be considered a very frequent toll user as my monies go to the toll not less than 3 times per working day. So, if person like me can’t enjoy the 20% discount for the 80 trips toll as promoted, who will be the lucky person, I really don’t know.<br /><br />Meeting ended late so I drove home straight. It was raining. As usual, the traffic was slower during rainy days. Which part of the road or highway was flooded again, I don’t know. Flash flood is a norm in this big city we are staying. Is our rain too big or our drain too small? Perhaps<br />someone could enlighten me on this.<br /><br />Reached home, received a mail from Inland Revenue telling that the refund for excess tax paid is yet to be processed as they are in the midst of investigation. It is interesting if we could find out how the investigation was conducted without asking us to provide the relevant documents or information. For refund involving slightly more than one hundred Malaysian Ringgit, investigation is still in the process after 4 months from the date of submission. With this personal experience, I think I can understand better now why they took endless years to investigate cases involve millions and billions.<br /><br />Took my dinner and watched the news on TV. Everything seems alright. Nothing big happened means good news, right? But once started to surf the net, wow, I was like entering a totally different world, it did not look as alright as I was impressed upon by the media. Which is which then? At the very least, there are different voices out there for us to hear. It’s now up to you and me to use our wisdom to decide which is which then.<br /><br />Almost done for the day and it was time to go to sleep. Hurray, one day nearer to the day which I am excitedly looking forward to, to exercise my right as an ordinary citizen, and to witness another victory of people power!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-4662126417594897864?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-64516263210331297222009-08-14T09:30:00.000-07:002009-08-14T09:42:20.424-07:00再一次把心给你<div>让我许下未曾实现的心愿</div><div>没有为什么 没有原因</div><div>我用心接受 用心付出</div><div><br /></div><div>我真得不懂 爱为什么不能碰</div><div>天空那么大却没有我的梦</div><div>我真的不懂 爱为什们那么痛</div><div>你是流星 沉默不语</div><div>你象狂风 邀我入梦</div><div><br /></div><div>挥一挥手 我依依不舍</div><div>谢谢在我心中说不出口</div><div>给你的礼物是我最真的心</div><div>我用心接受 用心付出</div><div><br /></div><div>后记：朋友，还记得这首阿牛作的歌吗？献给所有曾经陪我走过那一段岁月的你们。</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-6451626321033129722?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-79115882325563844962009-08-14T09:01:00.000-07:002009-08-14T09:14:56.396-07:00该不该感谢你，感谢你让她在等待的过程中，因为有了你的预约而过得特别开怀，<div>是否该感谢你的失约，只为让她保存等待的美，不让现实破坏？</div><div><br /></div><div>她过了一个愉快的星期六，真的，只是心却不死地在等待着，即使是一个致歉的电话也好。</div><div><br /></div><div>可怜的女孩在等待着她的男孩，而男孩却毫不知情，总是信口开河，他不知道女孩会当真的。</div><div><br /></div><div>可是女孩不甘心地为男孩找了千百个失约的理由，还自以为是地告诉自己，不要紧，其实没有他的星期六不也是过得很好吗？</div><div><br /></div><div>只是女孩不知以后还应不应该相信他，虽然女孩根本不知还有没有以后。</div><div><br /></div><div>但此刻的她却还是等，还在等着。。。</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-7911588232556384496?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-28195475368014279162009-08-14T08:20:00.000-07:002009-08-14T08:57:03.937-07:00对于小柔不嫁给浩君的原因是，<div>砰然间的心动并不一定要长厢斯守。</div><div><br /><div>心动是什么？</div><div>感觉不是天天都有，支持者夫妻过日子的不是心动，是互相的谅解、包容，及那份对对方的责任感。</div><div>阔别了这么久，对于他，她已不那么了解了，</div><div>怀念的，放不下的只是那刹那心动的感觉。</div><div><br /></div><div>如今，浩君向小柔求婚，证明他与她同样地怀念那一份心动，证明他原来是在乎的。</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>过去的就让它过去吧！</div><div>够了，已经够了，</div><div>她，已经得到了等待已久的答案，</div><div>真的已经够了。</div><div>知道他原来也一直在心里在乎，</div><div>她已得到了她一直所期待的答案，</div><div>这样已经够了。</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>拒绝是因为想永远都占有，</div><div>那是另一种更深沉的接受。</div><div><br /></div><div>不愿失去，于是不愿去拥有。</div><div>那感觉实在太美了，她不忍心去拥有，更不舍得失去，</div><div>还是把它放在彼此的心底一辈子，</div><div>一辈子都怀念吧！</div><div><br /></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-2819547536801427916?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-61890750821144116812009-08-10T05:10:00.000-07:002009-08-30T22:56:40.969-07:00Vada 是一个11岁的小女孩。她的母亲在她出世92天后去世。而她的父亲是一个专替死人家属办丧事的人。因为父亲对她漠不关心，不闻不问，所以她的举止常常异与常人，叛逆性挺强的。<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Vada 唯一的朋友叫Thomas。Thomas是个体弱多病的小男孩，尽管如此，他的性格与Vada恰恰相反，是个乖巧听话的孩子。每一次玩到兴高采烈时，Thomas总是因为吃饭时间到了而坚持回家。有一次，Thomas问Vada，“吃饭时间到了，怎么你总是不要回家？”“你是一只狗，只懂得回家吃饭，你不要随便在水沟旁小便啊！”Vada总是取笑他。这就是Vada。<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Vada和Thomas的感情很好。有一次他们去钓鱼 ，Thomas好不容易钓到了一条鱼，但Vada嫌那条鱼普通，要把它给放回河里去，在她尝试弄掉鱼钩时不小心弄伤了手指流血。这时她赶快叫Thomas把手也弄伤弄出血来。Vada用她的血和Thomas的血搅在一起，说：“这样我们永远都有亲情了！”此刻的Thomas望着Vada放生了的那条鱼，原来已经死了。<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />突然有一天，Vada发现她“流血”了，忙直叫她父亲，但他父亲不在。刚巧Shelly，Vada父亲的助手，后来成为了她父亲的情人，当时有在场，尝试解释给Vada听是怎么一回事时，Thomas却出现了，想约Vada去游泳。Vada匆匆把Thomas推开，“走开，没到5天或7天以后别来找我！”<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Vada从小由奶奶抚养长大，后来患上了老人痴呆症，人糊糊涂涂的。一天，因为好奇，偷窥父亲与Shelly接吻，一时没留神，让奶奶给溜到人家丧礼去捣乱，结果Vada狠狠地被父亲责怪了一顿。Vada生气极了，跑去找Thomas。他们在上回钓鱼的大树下坐着聊天。突然Vada问Thomas可有试过“kiss”，Thomas说没，于是Vada叫他kiss自己的手臂来练习一下。然后Vada叫他闭上眼睛，kiss了他的嘴唇。Thomas的脸红了。<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />之后，Thomas带Vada去一个地方，是个森林。他们看到了蜜蜂窝。Thomas建议用石头把蜜蜂窝丢下来。果然丢中了，可是就在这时，Vada的戒指掉了。这枚戒指，Vada一直戴在手指上,她说这枚戒指会随着她的心情变颜色.有一次Vada正在和Thomas玩耍,Shelly问她关于戒指时,Vada是这样回答的.Thomas听到了,便问:"是吗？可怎么每次跟你在一起时都只看到这枚戒指是黑色的？"<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />"那时因为我每一次跟你在一起时都是不开心的啊！”是啊，Vada每一次不开心都会跑去找Thomas的。<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />因为怕蜜蜂追，他们没找戒指便赶紧逃跑，逃出森林，跳入河中。当他们从河中爬起，Vada要回家时，Thomas问Vada：“如果你嫁不成给你暗恋的老师的话，你会不会考虑我？”Vada转过头来回答说：“我想我会。”语毕，Thomas开心地跑回森林里去寻找Vada掉了的那枚戒指。。。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-6189075082114411681?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-33641092479589496142009-08-08T01:13:00.000-07:002009-08-08T03:23:48.443-07:00人生是什么？与其去解释，不如去实行，去体会。<br /><br />***<br /><br />当门关上了以后，朋友，该换个方向了.<br /><br />***<br /><br />我已不是原来的我，因为我比原来的我变得更好了！<br /><br />***<br /><br />有爱便有牵挂有要求，不爱又寂寞又彷徨，给你，你选什么？<br /><br />***<br /><br />要吵，就要吵得轰轰烈烈，天翻地覆！<br /><br />***<br /><br />哈，爱我少一点，但久一点，好体贴的贪心哦！<br /><br />***<br /><br />原来，一些自己原以为已经放下了的东西，一直都未曾真正离开过。。。<br /><br />***<br /><br />有智慧的人是不需要用错误的经验让自己成长的。<br /><br />***<br /><br />从来都把一路走来的风风雨雨当作是一种成长，所以从不言悔。<br /><br />***<br /><br />只要保持着一分无邪，你一定可以很快乐的。<br /><br />***<br /><br />我快乐，因为我知足。我知足，却不是因为我已经经历了许多的风雨变化。于是难免会问，这种快乐算是真正的快乐吗？不过，尽管迷惑，也是快乐着的。<br /><br />***<br /><br />活着是最美丽的事，所以我一直都在认真地生活，努力去活出一个“我”来。<br /><br />***<br /><br />不要求什么，只求自己可以在无法改变的环境中去过着自己要的生活方式。<br /><br />***<br /><br />A means to the end, but not the end.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-3364109247958949614?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3370770758687732685.post-43895847014592827452009-08-08T01:07:00.000-07:002009-08-30T22:55:21.847-07:00爸，出事了！<br /><br />爸，你好吗？<br /><br />爸，你应该也知道这儿发生了什么事吧？记得你说过，每一天眼睁睁地看着身边不公平的事情发生，闹过了，过去了，没事了，然后又发生了，又闹了，又过了，然后又没事了，一直这样纵容着下去，迟早一定会出事的。<br /><br />爸，你的话应验了，真的出事了，一条人命就这样没了。我知道你一定说这已经不是新鲜事了，只是这一次发生的地点人物让人意想不到而已。<br /><br />这么多年看着你谈起国家谈起政治那咬牙切齿的样子，这一次女儿是真真正正地感受到了那股愤怒，那股激动！怎么可以这样？我们可以不计较那些把我们当傻瓜的一岀又一出愚蠢的笑话或闹剧，但我们绝不容许悲剧的发生，一个关乎人命的悲剧！<br /><br />请告诉我，人性在哪？<br /><br />爸，我好心寒，这种事情可以发生在我三十岁的年代，所谓民主文明的年代，那在我儿子三十岁的年代，所演变的会不会是在马路上明目张胆地开枪，还振振有词地说那是他的本份？这样的文明，这样的民主，太太可怕了！<br /><br />我不知道下一个不可思议的事会发在何时何地何人身上，但只要我们还抱着事不关己，明哲保身的态度，我们很快就会被毁灭了，马来西亚已没有明天了！<br /><br />爸，一直为你感到欣慰，你耗尽半生的努力，终于还是让你见证了变天才离开。但爸，想必你心里一定知道，那才是起步，革命的路还长还远还要难！<br /><br />就你来说，你在上上届大选落败后说要退下来写书，因为你累了，心也灰了，但上届大选你不还是本着普通党员的身份，到处奔波演讲，虽然你连吉打的补选都来不及参与就走了，但我知道你从来没放弃过你要改革的思想！我知道现在的你也一定在破口大骂了！<br /><br />我想我们不可以再坐以待毙了，让我们延续你骨子里的精神，继续革命！！！（愤怒篇）<br /><br />***<br />因为工作的关系，我又经过了事发地点，停留在红绿灯的片刻，我可以说有意识地望着那座大厦。短短几分钟里，眼眶热了。。。<br /><br />我有意识地让盈了眶的热泪落下，为他，也同时为这越来越不可思议的国家，哀悼了一分钟。在事发的日子算起的第八天。<br /><br />作为爸爸妈妈，痛失孩子是多么痛心的事，更何况以这样一种方式？<br /><br />而她为他决定从此共度一生，与子偕老，延续爱的结晶，但他毫无预兆地走了,那样的突然，那样的不明不白，连一句话都没能留下，连最后一面也见不及。。。要她往后怎么面对那些曾经有过的美好时光？她甚至不能确定孩子爸爸的栏上被不被允许填上他的名字。。。她更不知道为什么他会在这时候离开， 离开前承受了什么，离开的时侯痛苦吗，离开了以后知道他离去后续的是是非非以后甘心吗？<br /><br />被悲伤的情绪冲昏了头，我开始怨恨起来，痛斥着那些自私自利，抱着事不关己的态度的人们，是你们的愚昧造就了这样的一个悲剧，是你们的纵容杀害了这样的一个好人！你们才是最大的凶手！！我不管你醒觉了吗，你们必须负责，必须交待，必须改变！<br /><br />（感伤篇）<br /><br />***<br />网上流传着他被欧的短片，我没看清楚是他，但我不忍看下去。。。我开始害怕，害怕这是事实。害怕这事实会永远被隐瞒，然后被不太聪明的编剧以不太高明的手段用不太漂亮的姿势呈现在我们的面前。就像那一贯的作风。<br /><br />爸，事隔了也一段日子，我的心情无论如何转折都平伏不起来。<br /><br />如果你是知道真相的，可以报个梦吗？但愿那些直接与间接涉及的人也可以做梦，梦到历史重演在他身上，然后梦境成真。（放狠话篇）<br /><br />***<br />终于还是写到了这里，爸，你应该已经遇上了他吧？一个像你一样热血的青年可以陪你高谈阔论了。<br />爸，我们再聊！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3370770758687732685-4389584701459282745?l=yapsiewyee.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Yap Siew Yeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15072309849502765296noreply@blogger.com0